i have not been the focal of anyone's anger in a long time.
and so i got screamed at a few days ago,
and my ears are still ringing.
i tell you, it is an incredible sensation for me,
because my reaction time is often much slower than a normal human being,
the effect is completely lost on me.
it is only after the whole episode is over,
and when i start having flashbacks,
then i start regretting and thoughts such as " shit, i should have said this.....", " i should have done that..."
well i guess i got to try harder the next time round when someone screams at me in anger.

honestly, during the whole screaming process,
i felt like a kid being chided by my parents. (in this case, i use the term chided loosely)