have you ever had that feeling of:

a million thoughts and ideas rushing like the speed of light through my head.
everything is like a blur.
trying to grab hold onto an idea, a thought,
trying to form a line, a sentence, a paragraph,
making sense, formulating an argument,
but frustrated,
cause i am unable to structure my thoughts clearly into words.

i want you to read this and to be able to understand what i am trying to say.
this is what i want to achieve,
i am close to it, but it is not it.
it is kinda good, but not perfect.

i want to find that important missing bit that is floating around somewhere, at the back of my mind, amongst the million thoughts that are flying through.

you know sometimes how you know the exact word to describe something, but just at that moment in time, you can't seem to recall that particular word. you try and try, but it just does not come to you.

100% annoying.

this is what squeezing 26 journal articles into a 4000 word essay does to an individual like myself.