because i am not going to get beaten down by life.
because i am not going to get jaded, disillusioned, angry, bitter.
a friend once told me to "strive for happiness"
at that point of time, it seemed very inapproriate.
but on hindsight, i could see why he said that.
i guess it is only when you are striving for something, that you would be motivated to move forward.

yes, i am going to feel stupid, lost, confused and above all sad,
i am going to be called naive, foolish, dumb, crazy,
i am going to be hurt, cheated on, not loved in return,
but it is alright,
because i believe that if i sit here quietly and put my heart and soul in believing that it will come,
it eventually will.
everything ,whether good or bad, will definitely have a closure.
it is just a matter of time.

because i am not going to lose myself to the harsh realities of this world :)