ramblings

i think i am out of my hibernation mode.
feels strange to walk around the city, things seem a little unfamiliar.
but it is all good.

it has been raining cats and dogs the entire day.
but it is not dampening my spirits one bit.
this is one of the rare days where i am feeling so optimistic.

my life has been pretty boring. (whats new)
not much to update about.
have been doing readings after readings,
i have an entire stack to get through.
the sooner i finish, the earlier i can start on my assignment.

i am currently craving for:
1) steam banana cake
2) japanese food
3) sticky date pudding

i'm almost there.
and i did it my way.

i know it. just a little more time.



thank you for the lovely postcards.
it made a difference.

sleepless in melbourne

can't sleep. can't sleep. can't sleep.

feeling like having a mindless conversation with someone.
but don't think i know anyone who is awake at this hour.
i just want to chat until i fall asleep.
never done it before.
sounds kinda romantic to me.

i have never been a huge fan of animals
hamsters, turtles, dogs, cats, fishes, etc..


when i was a kiddy kid,
i was afraid of them all.
yes, though i thought they were cute,
at the back of my head, there was an awareness that they could bite.
and that fear made me avoid them like hell.


now that i am older and braver (i would like to think so),
i am still afraid of most animals. (especially pigeons and birds which are bigger than pigeons)
and it would seems like i am going to have to conquer another animal.
there is a new addition in the house.
a kitty cat.
wish me luck.

P.S i have such an understanding and sympathetic housemate
des: i just bought a cat
jen: i am allergic to cats. will get swollen eyes
des: aiyah you won't die can already.
jen: !!!!!!!!!!

i had the most awesome sticky date pudding over the weekend.

yum.yum.

i got to say the best tiramisu is still found in melbourne.

next holiday destination, or rather field trip... FIJI ISLANDS!

going to have some fun in the sun.

new semester begins.
and it is raining.
bummer.

another friend came and gone.
the departure and absence of a friend often leaves an empty vacuum.
like i say, such is life, can't be help.
with school starting next week,
i am slowly going to fall back into the daily routine.

i did really well for my first semester. woo hoo!
hopefully next semester will be great as well.
i am looking forward to my field trip in fiji!
don't you just love my tourism course.
all in the name of research....

going to start exercising soon.
the 5.8kg that i need to lose is starting to look like 10.8kg. haha.

dude and family,
thanks for the lovely book.
appreciate it deep deep man.

supermarket galore

i think i need to shower more regularly.
i seem to be attracting psycho people like bees to honey.
took a train back home from my auntie's place and decided to drop by the supermarket on my way home to grab some food to cook.
was busy minding my own business,
listening to my music,
when i realised that there was this strange man who was standing next to me.
i thought he was waiting for someone, and so well, just glanced at him and walked away.
went over to the next aisle, and there he was again,
pretending to read his newspaper and looking at me.
i decided to walk to the other side of the supermarket,
and then he was again,
just one arm's length away from me.
he kept glancing at me from behind a newspaper.
i was super freaked out by him.
i tried hard to not look ruffled by his presence, and contemplated on what is the next step that i should take. seriously, my heart was like doing a topsy turvy, i was frightened.
i ignored him and walked over to the cashier to pay for my stuff. i was so afraid that he was going to follow me.

thankfully, he saw me going to the register, put back the newspaper(he actually took it from the supermarket) to the stand and walked out.
a huge sigh of relief man.
the whole time that i was walking home, i kept turning around to check if there was any suspicious person following me.
now i am thinking of buying like a pepper spray, just in case anything unfortunate happens.

what the hell?

the strangest thing happened to me today.
or like just a couple of minutes ago.
i was just minding my own business on msn when this girl came and chat with me.
her name was Amanda, and she was not on my contact list.
she asked me if i remembered her and i said no,
and asked her where she was from.
she said she is from SQ and claims that i did a frankfurt new-york flight with her.
and i well just went along, hoping that somehow i will be able to conjure up a face to suit the name.
she told me that she wanted to quit and ya da ya da, ans subsequently asked me if i knew this passenger called vivian who both of us met on the flight.
i said you must be mistaken cause i don't remember anyone by that name.
and she said "oh never mind, then we must have done another flight together, but let me tell you about this passenger called vivian. she is very strange"
she then told me that this passenger vivian is actually a stripper who recently decided to venture into doing porno films and videos.
my "dear friend" Amanda then asked me if i actually watch porn. And i said no.
she went on to ask me if i was interested cause she can send me some
she also mentioned that " i look like the kind of person who would enjoy this kind of thing"
i was like what the fuck is going on here? this is freaking ridiculous and hilarious.
a person who i don't even know wants to send me porn videos?!!
isn't this the strangest thing ever?

i did not bother to reply her afterwards.
she just replied saying " talk to you soon, take care"

settling back into my life here in melbourne.
waking up in the middle of the night with a frosted nose,
i am pretty sure i am back in melbourne.
it might be common,
but i hate announcing to the world that i am back home (melbourne).
i like the idea of just removing myself from the fabric of life
and just have some time to myself. (which can also be known as anti social)
slowly taking my own sweet jen time to get back into the daily routine,
to familiarise myself with my apartment, the city, the streets, the sounds, the sights.
to slowly warm up once again to my surroundings.
like meeting a good old friend after a long time,
the akwardness, the prodding, the feeling around, the uncertainty,
and when you are sure that eveything is essentially still the same,
the outburst and outpour of feelings,
and you know then,
that you are back in business.

An Andy Roddick moment

i am experiencing an andy roddick moment now.
some of you might not understand what i am talking about,
so i shall enlighten you in a moment.

was watching wimbledon the other day,
and it was the men's finals.
roger federer vs andy roddick.
it was a super exciting match(i am beginning to appreciate tennis a whole lot more now)
and in the end federer won.
roddick put up a tough match.
well i am not a tennis expert here,
but i conclude that he might just be playing the best match of his life,
putting in all that he had, every trick, every skill, every strategy that he could think of.
and ultimately, he lost.
he did everything that he could, and gave it his all,
yet still he was unable to win. (though there were some points in the match where i thought he was actually going to win it)
and so ladies and gentlemen, this is the andy roddick moment that i am talking about.

giving it my all,
yet ultimately losing it all.
boy does it sux big time.

it is good to be on holiday.
it put things into perspective,
and frees up the wild wild mind.

sex and the city.
a feel good pill.

faith.
thats what i got to have.