i don't really know myself, for now.

often, when we are in relationships,
we strive to be what the other party wants us to be.
like how we train our dogs,
giving them a treat when they do well,
and giving them a spank when they step out of line.
i think in relationships it is mostly similar,(well i know it is a little extreme to make comparisons to dogs, but oh well...)
giving you love and encouraging smiles when you do something right,
and getting all mad and irritated when you do something wrong.
and after a while you get it, you know what makes the other party tick.
you try your best to tow the line,
to avoid making mistakes.

and along the way, you don't realise that you have lost a part of yourself.
and slowly, you evolve into this person that you think you are all along.

thats why, now that i am out of a relationship,
i still have a part of "me" while i was in a relationship embedded in me.
i am lost in this sense, unsure if what is me now is really the REAL me,
or it was replaced along the way.
given ,it might not have been a bad change.

things will eventually start coming back to me.
you reckon?